You are so beautiful.

Here's a picture I captured of the full moon sometime ago. Looking out at it, I couldn't help but smile to myself thinking of how much it resembled you. Like how the moon came by, a miracle like you happens only once in a lifetime. With no replacement, once gone it can never be found again. Just like the moon being the only of its kind, a wonderful girl such as yourself is only found one in a billion. Staring at the moon, I was once again reminded of how beautiful and incredibly amazing you simply are. Just like we cant possibly live without the moon, I cant live without you either. You are the only girl who's name is written all over my heart and I love you so. This is not a game of kiss the girl, in my eyes you are all that I see. The same words spoken from the eyes of different people. Please believe me, I am so much more than just words. I beseech you.

I love you dear. x

How much I love you.

When your day feels like shit and you feel as if your whole world is coming down on you. When you feel used and unimportant to him or to anyone else. On certain days when you feel that you merely exist to exist. Then remember that I would be there doing everything I can to brighten up your day. Remember that as I see you hurting, it hurts me equally as much to see you this way. When you feel so insignificant to the life of others and it seems as though no one else cares, remember that you are always the gem in my eyes and i care for you more than anything else in the whole world. When you feel like you have completely nothing at all, remember that I am the one thing that you will always have and I will always be there for you. Remember, that I love you from the very core of my heart. x

Signed and sealed with a kiss,
Ian Koh Xian Jian.

Dear Chia Yen-Yi, thank you so so much for everything!!

From every tiny little thing you did for me to all the walking and hunting for the perfect gift; thank you so much for the time and effort spent, thank you for the wish, thank you for the paper, thank you for the lovely bag, thank you so so much for everything! Yes you were the first and I would not have anyone else take your place even if i had the chance. It was so special.. you really made my day and nothing could top this. It meant everything to me, you have no idea how it feels like being me at this point. I love the bag. I really do. And right now, I simply cant stop smiling to myself :)

Here is me modeling with my brand new radioactive - this is not a toy bag!



















































Damn!! This is the best birthday ever! Because of you :) Thank you so much for everything. I love you. xx

Happy 1 Year Anniversary Baby! xx

You walked into the room and stumbled upon your favourite pink lilies and a combination of Theobroma dark chocolates, a compiled cd and a correction tape you told me you found cute. Everything which I had laid on the bed eagerly waiting to suprise you. And boy, were you suprised! But not half as suprised as compared to seeing what I had installed for you later on. After taking a few snapshots, I sat you down on the black armchair in my room and asked you to close your eyes and open both your hands. I gave you the black hardcover book which i made specially for you for this very day, bearing pictures of the times we shared together since day one. You silently opened it and went through every single page, until you reached the last page and read the note I left for you. You cried reading it and hugged me tightly. I bent down in front of you and wiped your tears away and took your hand. You said you know no one will ever love you this much. I wanted to kiss you and feel your lips pressed against mine. I wanted to hold your hand and feel your soft skin, wanted to hug you and hold you so tightly in my arms and never let go. We left not long after and I took you to dinner at our favourite market-like restaurant Marche which you first introduced to me before. Marche is not simply another restaurant as it holds something way more significant concerning the both of us. I ordered us our favourite Rosti, mushroom soup, a salad and a biiiiiiggg sausage! Much more than it seems, we ate and ate till we were both too stuffed to even walk properly. I ended up having almost the whole sausage, half your mushroom soup and your share of the salad because you said you were too full to go on. You were so tired on that day you almost fell asleep on the dinner table, but still so damn adorable and I couldn't help but smile just staring at you. You also sang our song `lucky' to me, which was such music to my ears. I was really happy.. happy for everything. Happy you sang to me, happy I made you laugh and smile, happy you enjoyed dinner, happy i could brighten up your day. I hope you liked the gifts I got you. I hope I made you feel special.. as if when I open my eyes, you are all that I see. Because baby, that is how it is for me. As time did not permit, we left Marche and I sent you home. Walking you to your door, I bid you goodbye and watched till you disappeared behind closed curtains with a smile on my face and i am sure, yours too.


Yes, more than a year has gone by, but as time grows on us so does my love towards you. I hope that this was a day you would never forget, because I know this was a day forever embedded in my memories. You are such a wonderful girl and I am so lucky to be in love with you. Happy 1 year anniversary baby. I truly love you. You really are a dream come true. xx

Yours only,
Ian Koh Xian Jian

11/11/2009

I hope you liked the tiramisu, the cookies and the card that i made specially for you. You who mean the world to me. Just once more before the day ends, i would like to wish you happy 9th month anniversary! You made the past 9 months the best ones ive ever had. It was like living a dream, having you by my side each and every day. Nothing could be more perfect, my heart is certain. I love you so much baby. Goodnight.