Convictions of a dead man.

It was not even a conversation. It was simply a passing remark. I have never talked to my friends about the wallet, all that was said was

A - so what did your girlfriend get you?

B - she got me an ax wallet

A - seriously!? my girlfriend got me that too!

and we both parted ways. That song, the action of recording it, the trouble you took to see it through was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me in my life. Though I see you would beg to differ. You're not the one to blame. But I would not say it any other way because that is the way it is for me. So forgive me for repeating that same sentence for the millionth time.

Do you not reckon that if anyone were to question me regarding what you did for me on my birthday that I would mention the song? Is that how I'm perceived through your eyes? Well I pray not. Though if that is how you truly feel and think of me, surely it is beyond justifiable to say that I have not been a good enough boyfriend and thus your regards of me.

For that I owe you an apology for not having played my part well. What I can assure you of is the love I have for you and how deep it runs in me. Though I wonder, if you search deep inside yourself, is it really that hard to believe that my love is good? I just want for you to be happy and for me to be happy with you.