I love you.

Baby, I know I have done you many wrongs before. I know the level of distrust and insecurities you place in me. Amidst our fight yesterday, my main concern was to get in touch with you, to find out if you were home and fine, I forgot completely about the fact that I chatted with her and so I never came around to telling you. I can imagine how wrecked and shaken up you are by what has happened and I cannot begin to describe how sorry I am for making you feel this way. I hate myself for having forgotten, I hate myself for putting you through this and it pains me more than anything else to imagine what you are going through. But at the same time b, I want you to know that I was not lying or hiding anything from you. This girl never lived in Malaysia to begin with and I have only seen her once in my life few years back. What or how could I possibly have anything to hide or lie to you about? I know it is my mistake for forgetting and I am not denying it. I'm sorry. I love you and I hope you will give me a chance by talking to me. You too should know how much I love you, more than anyone else ever did and I would do anything for you, literally. I understand how you see it, but I hope you consider see'ing it from my side to b and try to understand what I am saying. I promised you that I would never lie or hide from you again and I meant that b. I really did.. I don't want to lose you. My biggest wish is for us to be together forever. I'm sorry b, I meant it when I said I would not lie or hide from you. And in this case, I have nothing to. Please believe me b, I beg of you.. You are the only one in my life.